Double Minded

Double Minded’

Blinded

I wear the mask asking myself who am I

And why?

I do the things I do and say the things I say or simply… why I act this way?

I am one man in public, another in private…

I am seemingly admired by others but only if they knew… but I dare you to judge me because if only you wore my shoe…

I have a dark side… a place where I like to hide…

You See… SOME TIMES YOU DON’T WANNA BE: Where everybody knows your name!

I’m kinda in pain… the feeling is that of the similar emotion that one gets when it rains.

Except that when it rains for me… its not just precipitation drops that I see.

I am drained by emotion that causes me to want to fall into a deep sleep…

I am entangled in a web of deception that keeps my mind entwined…

All due to this intellectual stimulated, highly educated, somewhat sophisticated brother that resides in me, with a double mind…

A Mind, A mind… mind that’s creative and constantly thinking, of better ways to be better…

A mind that thinks often about his life and how his plight has enabled him to manage the storm through all types of weather…

I am a preacher on Sunday and can be a teacher any day…

I am your counselor on Monday and poet in every type of way…

I am a Big Brother on Tuesday and an Abercrombie model in my own little way…

I drive a truck on Wednesday and pimp a crown vic around the way…

I am a Director on Thursday and a Father and Husband Everyday…

Thank God is Friday because tomorrow is my day and Sunday I must pay…

My debts because of life’s tumultuous fine… all because of this Double Mind.